Peeking behind the curtain.
Recently I was reliving the past by reading over old blog posts I had written for my personal blog. In those days, I felt funny everyday. Every morning was greeted with, “let’s find something that makes us giggle.” And “Let’s make a whole slew of people laugh.” (I’m using ‘slew’ right, right?) A lot of this feeling was unintentionally put on hiatus once I started this business. It just happened.
I found myself worried.
I worried what I would miss at home if I didn’t plan properly. Or what I would miss even if I planned everything perfectly.
I worried about keeping my very patient wife happy and found myself coming up with new ways to say “It’s not always going to be this hard. This will get better soon.”
I worried that my grandma, dad and mother aren’t getting any younger and that maybe my priorities were misplaced.
I worried that the patience of those that I love most is wearing thin.
I worried that friend and family are being sacrificed on the altar of “Managed Growth.”
Then there are the business worries.
I worried about getting shafted by the bank or the insurance agent.
I worried that I have left too much money on the table or that I have asked for the same work that friends from competing businesses are lowballing the same client.
I worry about payroll NONSTOP.
I worry about hurting peoples feelings by being too direct.
I worry that one of my employees is sad because of home issues and there is nothing I can do.
I worry about my employees kids when they are sick.
I worry that I can’t grow fast enough and strong enough to effect partner investments.
I worry that I might hire a wingnut. (I worry I may be the wingnut!)
I worry that I can’t give my employees everything they want or need.
I worry that the accountant thinks I’m a moron.
I worry that the lawyer is screwing us (He was, according to new counsel.)
I worry about things now, that not long ago, I didn’t even know existed. (Regrettably, this happens quite a bit.)
So Colin – Do you ever regret it?
Honestly, I’ve never been happier in my career. I get to work from home for a little bit and I get to work with some of my best friends in the world when I’m on the road. (Some of them are clients.) I’ll leave you with this quote from Leonardo da Vinci, of Mona Lisa fame, which I think personifies not only myself and the other owners of bloc, but everyone here at BLOC.
“It had long since come to my attention that people of accomplishment rarely sat back and let things happen to them. They went out and happened to things.”
-Leonardo da Vinci
Colin K. Sheffield